Last week I did something very out of my element.
I went on a date.
With myself.
Before you point and laugh and give me the big loser sign, hear me out. It doesn't sound like the most fun or glamorous thing, but for me, it was a big moment in my life. I'm a people person, an extrovert, outgoing, a relationship based person. I don't like to be alone. I have the most energy when I'm around other people. Quite frankly, when I'm alone for too long I start to get depressed. Not jump off a building depressed but I just start to get BLAH.
That's why this date for one was a huge step in my life. I felt so independent and empowered.
This is how the date went down:
First, I went shopping by myself. Which I've done frequently before, so no big deal. After that, I went to Panera and a light bulb went off. I usually get my food to go and take it home, but I was STARVING. I thought, maybe I should sit and eat here? Not gonna lie, the thought kinda scared me at first. Eat by myself? Sit alone at a booth? Should I call someone while doing this? I was really really really tempted to call my best friend, but I didn't. I got my food, sat down, and just ate. In silence.
Obviously I people watched, but Panera wasn't too bumpin for some reason that night so it was pretty lonely. I honestly didn't mind though. It was nice to have some peace and quiet outside of my four walls. I felt super empowered. So empowered that I continued the date with myself and went to Rita's after. I sat outside by myself AGAIN and ate my mango gelati.
Long story short, I'm a great time. Being alone might not be the most exciting, thrilling thing ever, but now I know I can do it. Not only can I do it, I can do it and be happy at the same time.
I do want to find someone someday and my date with myself reaffirmed that. It's always nice to have company and someone to share life with. If you are still looking for that special someone, treat yourself in the meantime.
You are a great time ;),
C
Glad you are able to find the joy in your own company. Dates with myself are always the best. The sex is sometimes even better.
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